sad notes of heartbreak .

after a while, my heart began humming the sad notes of heartbreak, these melodies played tune to more than just my heartache. maybe i spent so long screaming my feelings in a language which the world didn’t understand. now, with sorrow in my soul and grief making home in my hands, i yearn for something pure and clean. new feelings to set these poisonous ones free. maybe i’m afraid my heart is held hostage to where your love failed to leave its mark, where your words spilled blood. a child trapped in an adult world, unable to speak their heart. wishing for the taste of toxic love to depart. 

i pray one day the sad notes of heartbreak will disperse, fleeing down the driveway inside a hearse. no longer singing to the sounds of my hurt. i know i’ll soon find the meaning of sweet love and release, in the name of finding myself and finding peace. maybe drowning under all these destructive emotions taught me valuable lessons of freedom. now, i wish to taste the feelings of being free, without the taste of lies and deceit. maybe i’ll find my happiness buried underneath, and if i do i promise to keep it close. i promise to empty my chest from feelings of heartbreak to feelings of hope instead. 

~maysablogs