poisonous love

healing the wounds with the salty taste of my tears,
patiently waiting for my heart to bleed my fears.
there’s ringing bells inside my head of your violence
but my throat succumbs to my tongue and its silence. 
i trace the scars on my arms with my index finger, my skin is on fire.
tattooed abuses of insults that lay me to bed,
chants that close my eyes, satirical expressions that give me death.
the room echoes with the anguish you left behind,
toxic words and venomous slurs manically intertwine.
as i scream to the skies, the sorrows of our love drown in my cries. 
see, you were my drug and i overdosed.
damaged the best parts of my soul, still i held you close.
concealed the anger, painted over the warning signs,
took the demons from your mind, gave them a safe home in mine. 
i bring my hands to my face and gently kiss my palms, 
they hold the fractured remains of your undying love,
lifeless
breathless
painful 
reckless.
i’m sorry your passion slowly turned itself into poison
and your poison snuck its way in to carefully destroy us.

~maysablogs