what weather feelings do you bleed?

early mornings on the colder days where you sit on the edge of the windowsill and wish your pain away. between cracked lips and soaked cheeks, you begin to mourn your grief. your thoughts are becoming your joy’s thief. placing your hand against the glass, you breathe in deep, maybe the dark clouds that you see, hide the mercy you so desperately seek. living the same cycle since eighteen, it’s the nightmares which have you begging on your knees, continuously making you weak, every night you’re falling through your sleep. although you’re learning what destruction of the soul means, your heart yearns for serenity. tired eyes bring forth new tears, you wipe them away to have them fall again. it’s the silence that rings the loudest today. you had the softest of intentions and a love so pure, it burned so deep and moved the heavens. so what caused your love to wane and your heart to shatter? what made you surrender yourself and give all your energy to that which does not matter? inhaling the darkness of the sky, you close your eyes to find poison intertwined. your head takes refuge in the palms of your hands. you know your love shouldn’t be contraband but it’s the hold they have over you which bleeds regret. as if their demons cling onto the walls of your chest so every time you speak, your speech is snatched and your breath is held hostage. as you watch the sunrise fall through, you pray God doesn’t abandon you when your next wave of sadness looms or when the violence of the night starts to drown you. as the clouds begin to part in the sky, you wipe your tears for the last time. maybe today is the day where your ocean comes back to the tide, the day He restores the faith in your heart and returns the light in your eyes.

~maysablogs