only God knows.

you’re wide awake while the rest of the world is sleeping, buried beneath all your guilt and all your grieving. you think nobody can hear you, you think nobody can see you. you try to mend all your broken pieces but the damage keeps on increasing. your heart feels heavy, poisoned with anger, fuelled by violence, you need the fire inside you to cease so your soul can finally be at peace. remember only God knows what you’re going through, only God knows what they say about you. only God knows what’s breaking you, remember only God knows the real you. you spend your days lost, you’re waiting for someone to guide you. unable to speak of the hurt that befalls you or of all the trauma that inhabits you. you think nobody understands you, you think nobody believes you. all the sadness you carry slowly seeps through your veins, your mind now a descending hurricane. you try to mask the brutalities of your pain, ashamed that you’re the one to blame for all the demons inside that you’re unable to tame. remember only God knows what you’re going through, only God knows what they say about you. only God knows what’s breaking you, remember only God knows the real you. you keep a cover over every single feeling, afraid if someone saw them, they’ll leave and you’ll never find your healing. you think nobody can save you, you think nobody can aid you. you spend your nights with your hands placed together, between every whisper and every tear, you pray your hardships will end so your mind and your body can finally rest. remember only God knows what you’re going through, only God knows what they say about you. only God knows what’s breaking you, remember only God knows the real you.

                   ~maysablogs