darkness.

look into my corners and you’ll see darkness. a sequence of black that swims violently through my veins, consuming my mind, altering the chemicals in my brain. burying me under the sheets, its hands around my ribcage, pressing in deep so i can no longer breathe. oh, how it halters my sleep. see, there’s winter within my bones, my soul’s becoming cold, descending through an avalanche with no safe place to call home. the darkness arrives to accompany the cold, can you hear the glaciers inside my heart groan? the fear of falling and the uncertainty of not knowing, what happens next or when this internal corruption will end. its hands move from my ribs to my chest, wrapping around each lung, searching for my words that once took refuge on my tongue. see its poison slowly seep into me, intoxicating my thoughts, infecting my feelings, my body ailing. often, i see the darkness smiling at me, with eyes so murderous and speech so venomous, saying i’ll never find the cure to happiness. maybe it speaks the truth, maybe i’ll never find happiness, peace too. i’ve lost myself too many times to pick myself up again. see, the darkness is in control of my head, i’m struggling to remove its hands from my aching chest. see, the darkness cascades down my spine, no matter how hard i try to pull away, it grabs me from behind, engulfing me whole. see, with darkness there’s nowhere to hide. 

                       ~maysablogs