morning prayer

“oh my Lord, it is you who i need, my heart’s breaking, my hands are weak. these last few days my soul hasn’t had enough sleep, i’m constantly torn between should i keep trying, maybe it’ll leave or maybe i should let it be, guess it’s just meant to consume me. my Lord, i’ve been strong but hardship is all i see, i need you to help me, please save me from this mess, it’s my head that needs to rest. how do i find peace when panic is all i’ve seen and troubled is all i’ve been? my Lord, i spend my nights raising my hands but you see, my eyes they weep, like the mountain i’m climbing is far too steep and i’m finding it hard to breathe. oh my Lord, please save me from your eternal heat. my Lord, i plead for your help, i need you to save me from myself, i need to find relief from all this self-inflicted grief. my Lord, sometimes i get lost in this world, it’s so hard not to, but please don’t forget me like those times i forgot you. please don’t let this darkness ingurgitate me, i long to breathe calmly and rest peacefully. please grant my soul relief, grant it peace, may you guide me towards what makes you pleased. my Lord, please remove the afflictions from my heart, let the sadness depart and replace the hatred with endless patience. my Lord, i know this life is filled with continuous tests, so i ask for you to give me hope, to give me strength. i understand no one but you can cure the trauma i’ve endured, or the pain i’ve felt. oh Lord, please accept this prayer so silent, heal my heart so violent, i plead for you to bless me with your bounties, please forgive me with all your mercy.”

                                                  ~maysablogs